is me...or others?

I felt that, I'm a funny person.
I always feel that I'm A type of person. But, I found out that I am acting like a B type one, I started to wonder.
When I'm trying to analyze and find out the causes, I realized that I'll pull out tons of reasons (*or, better to say as excuses) to reassure and comfort myself.
Isn't I'm funny.? Or, that everyone is acting this way?

Woo.. sound complicated.

Ok, put in this way..
I always think that I'm a friendly person. But, sometimes, somehow, I will found out that I acted differently. Then, I tried to give reasons...
I acted so, is because there's too many new people around.
I acted so, is because I'm too new.
I acted so, is because they are not friendly enough to me.
I acted so, is because we are not click! Our topics are just...so different.
I acted so, is because...they are too young/old....our age range is different.
I acted so....

Hmm.

Whenever a person like me (a friendly la...), I think I can survive well and get close with others easily.
But sometimes, I realized that I just cannot blend in with the others.
I felt that I'm trying to push the responsibility to others..than myself.

'See..it's because of them....not me!'

Blend in, is not easy. Like a friend of mine say,
it takes time to get to know a person, it takes time to get use with the environment, it takes time to be with them, take time to have the same topic......
it takes time to blend in.

Besides, you yourself, play an important role. (**aww...'important role' this phrase was normally used in my assignments).
You need to put efforts to blend in.
Have some tea with them...try to pay attentions to them, even the topic you're not interested...

Hmm.

Sometimes, I just dunno what I want.
Work hard, siewmay! For sure you can o!!
;)

**Put a smile on your face, as you wont know you've brighten up someone's day!**

work!

Been start working for 2 weeks.
Wow….
Time flies, so fast, it already been 2 weeks. Bit unbelievable le. J

So…frankly n properly speaking, now I’m a working class people d.
Hoho..
Hmm, but to me, seems not much difference.

So, what’ve I learn or done all these while le?
Hmm….learning lo.
Learning with all the processes..
Learn to deal with the system…
Learn to adapt to my job n environment….and, for sure…colleagues.

I’ve been blessed with a really friendly and nice senior who teach me all my ‘responsibilities’.
**ya, trust me…my responsible is quite big le**
And, I’ve quite some nice and sweet neighbor. In the whole office, I would say, my department is one of the most happening one.

My colleagues they will chit chat while stress….laugh loudly when heard of jokes….
Actually, it’s quite not bad.
;)

Eventually, I realized something. Our department is really bz. As so, about two third of our time all of us are really really busy that we can only stay on our place and work hard with our jobs in order to get to go home.
**no hyperbola, k!**

Been a new hire for two weeks, I started to handle with jobs. There are few days that I’m loaded with works that I din even have time to drink and go to rest home.

I wonder, how I will be after few months. But still, thank God that I got this ‘busy’ job. I am that kind of people who will die of bored. So, with much works, I get to use my time even better.

:)

So, so far made mistakes, being call into my superior’s office, been making jokes with colleagues, drowned with works, and stress with figures.

But, as I see, there’s much much more to go.

So, just smile, and we’ll have another unexpected and wonderful tomorrow lo!!
;)

Yes, I do.

Was accompanying my sister to pay her credit card.
As most of you all know (or, you totally have no idea!?) that Bumiputera Commerce and Southern Bank has now became CIMB. As so, the queue for making payment is REALLY long.
As a nice sister, I waited patiently. Listening to radio and playing Tetris that Ivan downloaded...then I heard a song by Faye Wong, willingness (in Mandarin: wo yuan yi).

It is a nice song.
It reminds me of many things.

At work, with a willing heart, you will able to learn more.

In a relationship, with a willing heart, you will know more about your partner; you will have a good & mutual relationship.

It then reminds me of marriage.

Last year, it was the first time in my life witnessed my friend's wedding (my first Christian friend). I was really touched when pastor praying for them and also the very important moment--when they were saying the vow.
It was...it was...so pretty.

Let's imagine...
when we stand on the picture and look at it, you will notice that willingness is really an important element.

Willing to step out..
Willing to speak up...
Willing to stand firm..
Willing to spend time...
Willing to know....
Willing........to make a vow.

Hmmm.


Wondering, one day after many years...will I be standing in my church and make my vow to my spouse, with a most willing and excited heart...
:)



*The seed we sow today determine the kind of fruit we'll reap tomorrow -- ODB*